>>895I've done some heinous shit in my life. I keep telling myself to forgive myself, but im having trouble with that. I forgive everyone else, though. Im sorry. I love you. I love all of you. Unconditionally. But still, I don't like to start cracking and crying.
I have trouble living with myself. Heinous shit, dude. I just want redemption. I wanna die being at peace with myself. Everfree. Oh Everfree, take me home to everfree. Ill be saying "Free at last, free at last? Devil almighty, free at last.
Im suffering.. but i still love you unconditionally.
So much trouble forgiving myself.. I've ruined any chance of getting sympathy from others. I pissed it away by doing insane shit that, and horific war crimes. Everyone (including myself) hates me. I can't blame them. I fuckin hate myself and just wish I could protect everyone, even from myself.
Nightmare.
Need help. Dont loose the love, please.