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Lots of people think that there's wisdom at the bottom of a bottle of jack daniels. They are all wrong.

>>28979
uh yeah dude sure EVERYONE is wrong except for you

get a load of this guy

(not serious)

>>28979
Mmm. You're correct in what you say. I have been a terrible person; a horrible friend (Despite what friends I have arguing against that); on one hand you can argue people who have abandoned me weren't worth the interaction to begin with, but I don't think so. I am a handful. A major handful that needs love, even when my thorns tear into your flesh. While it hurts a lot, I'd rather people just leave me then be Fairweather friends. At least the baidaid is ripped off. I don't take it too terribly personal after the first impact of feelings. Perhaps that is why I am so forgiving despite being so quick to anger. I actually feel extremely terrible when I wrong someone. I hate the feeling. I like fighting and stuff, but there's gotta be even ground and for it to be agreed on. Otherwise else I just feel like a shitty bully. Or a manipulative fag. I like when things are real. I desire to be adored. I'm a lover. Not a fighter.

I am as simple as I am complex.

I am quite lucky to have those who have stuck with me. Perhaps that's why I show them a more sensitive and soft side. Perhaps that's why I allow them to make jokes at my expensive. I am freakshow nightmare jester; moving through the shadows with the speed of a cat. Yet -- Love blooms. Love is powerful. It is a drug that is more addicting than any substance anything can provide.

But you do hold a point. Alcohol is destroying my health. It can enchant and enhance my personality but there is this point where I turn into a total fucking sensitive dick. From a stoic warrior to an emotional wreck.

What is a boy to do?

I can't stop. I won't stop. I'll continue to be the sadistic, evil, cruel person I live as.

You arent as mean as you think you are

*nuzzles u*

*bites u*

This is fursecution

>>28986
>alcohol is destroying my health
wat is this the dark ages?
if u must drink something, just drink kava kava instead

>>29024
Kava kava? Ive heard of it. Not too familiar. What are your experiences with this brew?

Will Kava Kava reduce the infernal, oppressive sounds wracked in my mind; desperate for sensation both in a physical and mental aspect? Will Kava Kava clear my mind? (It's deff time) Will it make me forget the unstoppable loneliness and untraceable void of emotion that burns my soul and leaves me a frozen husk through waxing and waning moments of apathy and desperation?

Will I finally feel loved in a way that cannot be replicated; to be desired, admired, and adored by someone to the brink of obsession?

Yes, I will try your Kava Kava juice.

>>29025
personally, i learned about it around 2009 when i was trying to find something (physically) non-addictive to potentially help with [an] anxiety my ponyfriend Fluttershy had been having ....

some of it binds to GABA-A a bit, which is one of the same binding sites as alcohol, although unlike alcohol, Kava Kava doesn't have dissociative effects and also acts as a mild anti-depressant. In addition it's healthier (just make sure you buy from a reputable company and generally avoid tudei kava) -- does have some drug interactions, so be aware of that...

...used to buy it back in the dayhoof ... never felt comfortable on more than 2 or 3 drinks tho, so usually just stuck with no more than 1 or 2 ...keeps your mind relatively clear and as it's considered a pro-social plant, is nice to watch ponies with (or, i imagine, do real social things with if you're into that) -- is considered a divine plant by the ponies who originally used it ...used in wedding rituals -- a highly revered plant

there are also different varieties with different phenotype lineups -- there seems to be a lot marketing for high-dopamine varieties but those aren't necessarily the best ...

>>29026
>Will Kava Kava reduce the infernal, oppressive sounds wracked in my mind; desperate for sensation both in a physical and mental aspect?
sounds like alcohol withdrawal or something, ngl

>Will Kava Kava clear my mind?
probably not

>Will it make me forget the unstoppable loneliness and untraceable void of emotion that burns my soul and leaves me a frozen husk through waxing and waning moments of apathy and desperation?
probably not but might (somewhat subtly, perhaps) chemically encourage u 2 b a better pony

>Will I finally feel loved in a way that cannot be replicated; to be desired, admired, and adored by someone to the brink of obsession?
dunno

>>29028

>sounds like alcohol withdrawal or something, ngl

More than likely. I've had the shakes before when I was younger. It was pretty bad. Your behavior does change before physical symptoms appear. Alcohol is one of the few drugs on the planet that can kill you from the withdrawals alone.

I have been trying to stop. -- At least the small desire is there.

>encourage u 2 b a better pony
"They don't understand the things I say on Twitter.."
I think I am a good person. I just think alcohol and the internet brings out a huge asshole in me.

For all of my confidence and ego; I am sensitive and insecure. I don't like feeling abandoned or like I'm worthless. It's a strange pendulum. On one hand I feel like I'd rather be the one the hate than the one they think is friendly; to say fuck everyone who doesn't like me. On the other hand I feel sad. I feel like I'm just this annoying unwanted thing. Like I am incapable of being truly loved by those around me. There are people who love me -- Don't get me wrong. But it's never enough for some reason these days. I feels like there is something deep in my chest that can't be filled. A void; a hunger for something; a desire.

I'm not really thinking clearly at the moment. But.. thank you for listening to me.

A third. There are these moments where I am plagued with a strange mixture of longing and apathy. Perhaps an acceptance. You made your bed so lie in it. I will say, at least I am no longer in the Rock Bottom phase of my life. Back then I was so self destructive that sadness felt almost pleasurable in its negativity. It was comforting. It still is. But I remember I would literally just not care about anything and act more like an animal; then when I was forced to accept reality; I coped by saying "Well, let's see how bad things can get"